Collaboration is just a great thing. I have been working together with a wonderful gentleman, Mr Steven Mann, in relation to my creative writing….poetry, words of inspiration and other musings. What a team we make and now you can access and download a number of my “Clarabelle’s Musings” on Amazon. There are 10 books for you to choose from and also a paperback format of a wonderful collection of “Clarabelle’s Musings”.
I shared in those posts that I had only written six A4 pages of the book in 2011 and felt it was now a good time to post them on this blog.
Below is Part III of my story and maybe, just maybe I will now continue with my book, almost 4 years later. What I do hope this posts encourages YOU to do, is for you to start to write your own book, that my friend is what you need to hear today. I look forward to reading your book one day, I truly do, this is YOUR sign to do that.
Start Writing Part III
Chapter One, Carpe Diem cont……
Let me fast forward you to my teenage years where I feel some entrepreneurial spirit was starting to shine….a team of friends and I arranging school discos on a Tuesday night….I often think back to that and laugh and also selling tablet and macaroon in school classes – 3pm was a good time for sales – pupils started to get hungry and couldn’t access any food until home time so sales were very good then, in particular Maths Class. I am smiling here because I can remember the conversations so clearly. I had a job after school from the age of 14, Dad got me the job in the local shop after school 4.30pm –8.00pm Monday to Friday. I didn’t particularly like that job for various reasons but mainly because I felt ‘forced’ to go to this job, it was like a family expectation – however it did give me excellent work experience – I also earned 80 pence an hour, not that great pay really but I started to appreciate and value money then, I would save up my money and buy things like my first shell suit (with batwings) and matching adidas trainers….oh I am laughing to myself now.
I couldn’t wait to leave school and ‘earn money’ I left the job in the shop and worked at the weekend in a hotel doing some waitressing, with my best friend Donna (her Uncle Michael got us the job)…one word here “hilarious”. Ask me about those funny stories one day. Ah I’m starting to see a pattern here, family customers got us the jobs and “asked” – another great wee quote I like “if you don’t ask, the answer is always no”….so very true!! I went to typing college after High School and got my first job in Cassels Solicitors when I was 16, my official job title was “Office Junior” a title that you cannot use these days due to age discrimination laws. That was a good first job, I earned £29.50 a week for the first year and gave my mum £10.00 per week “dig” money, when my wages went up to £34.50 the following year I gave my mum £15.00 per week – so I was wasn’t any better off, not good business sense there….but I just got on with it!!
“Stop, Get Me Out”
I left that job due to a couple of serious car accidents I was in when I was 18….that’s another story but I do want to tell you about a significant story here.
After my car accidents I was extremely nervous travelling in cars, to the extent that I was unbearable as a passenger, screaming, shouting, “stop, get me out”, my imagination had possessed my mind and I was convinced that cars were going to come of nowhere and crash into us….bizarre now I know but very true at the time. I knew I needed help so I went to the Doctor with my problem. I explained the situation and the Doctor proceeded to write me out a prescription for drugs that I could take before going into a car and he said they would calm me down. “No”, I said rather strongly and confidently, I told him I didn’t want to take drugs everytime I wanted to sit in a car, I didn’t want to rely on this, I said to him I knew it was psychological and asked for an alternative option…so off to the psychologist I went.. after a couple of trips and listening to tapes, I decided that, that process wasn’t for me, I couldn’t engage in it for some reason probably because I didn’t fully understand it….I told the psychologist that the only way I felt I would get over this was to learn to drive myself and be in control of the situation. I did do that, I faced my fear and did it anyway, I’ve been driving for over 15 years now and just love the independence of driving.
A Vulnerable Position
When I think back to that time, I could have been so easily influenced on taking drugs to help me out, but I challenged the Doctor from a vulnerable position I might add and thus a different outcome…much more positive than being hooked on drugs. I do feel very proud of myself when I think back to that situation.
I am going to take a break here from writing and head out for run before the sun comes fully up….I’ll head towards the beach front that will be lovely and refreshing, I’ll be back. Time 7.05am.
Sunday, 18th December 2011, 9.03pm
Well well, so much for continuing with my book when in Spain, I figured that it was my mum’s holiday too and quality time with my mum was much more important to me at the time than focusing on writing my book. We did have a lovely holiday though and I feel some well deserved sunshine and relaxation for us both.
It is better for me to be in the ‘mood’ to write this book and just let the creative flow process take over, that way there is little effort and less energy required, for some reason it just feels easy and natural when in that zone.
That’s all for now folks, that’s all I’ve written, I am sure I will come back to it one day, I know I will, when I’m ready and when I’m in the zone.
Are you inspired to write you own book yet?….I do hope so.
Last week I shared with you the first part of this blog post, it was the beginnings of my own book, which I wanted to share with you. Today, I share with you Part II and if you missed the first part, here is a link for it, Start Writing Part I
Thinking about writing your own book? Well, if there ever was a clear sign that you should, then here it is….GO FOR IT!!
Start Writing Part II
Chapter 1, Carpe Diem Cont….
Face the Fear and Do It Anyway
My mum and I have now been in Santa Ponsa almost 24 hours and during that time we have honoured our first task given to us by Uncle Gerry, which was to deliver a bottle of Scotch Whisky to Tony and Peter, Owners of Axaja Restaurant, we are dining there on Wednesday night – I love meeting new people, so I am looking forward to that with my mum.
We shall move from this hotel to the flat today and I am looking forward to taking the cases up the steep hill…I like a physical challenge, now that I think of it, I really love to challenge myself, even more so everyday now, “face the fear and do it anyway” –that’s my motto of the moment.
Big Beautiful City Lights
Let me give you a very brief summary of my life to date and I really do mean “summary”, for the moment anyway. I was born on 10 July 1973 and I had the most truly wonderful childhood, honestly I really did, I have the most amazing memories of fun, laughter, self-expression, lots and lots of pals (friends). What it feels like today when reminiscing and looking back, is like a unique bubble of incredible community spirit and human resourcefulness – I’ve added in some pictures from the past which I feel captures what I’m saying here.
I was such an adventurous child with a vivid imagination, and I often dreamed of travelling to America. I can quite distinctly remember one summer evening when I was about 9 years old in the local playground and swinging as high as I could go on a swing, so I could see the bright city lights in the distance, it was like I was trying to actually reach them or touch them in some sort of way.
Back then I didn’t know it was the town of Hamilton, which was less than 10 minutes drive away, but in my childhood mind it was America and I visualised myself travelling there when I was older and having fun in a bustling, exciting environment, sunny all day long and mesmerising after dark.
“Claire, Claire…..time to come in”, Mum shouted.
“Awh Mum, give me 5 minutes, please just 5 minutes more Mum”, I shouted back.
Mum always did actually, YES, I was happy, 5 minutes more to lose myself in my mind and dream of escaping to those big beautiful city lights – that was a wonderful kind of freedom for me.
I am noticing as I am writing here my values are starting to come out….I can now start to identify where they were born, for example, “fun, freedom, challenge and adventurous spirit” are clearly evident from 30 years ago, WOW, and they’re still with me, maybe changed rank over time but they are still there.
Now that I am thinking, even before that I have a clear memory of Brenda Shannon, my best friend when I was 5 years old, her and I talking about going to America…where did that come from?, I can only think that possibly came from watching certain American TV programmes….I will think of what they were and add them in here.
The Final Part III will be shared in a future blog post, next week.
In 2011 I decide to start writing my own book, I didn’t really have any big plans for it, I just thought about it one day and started writing.
I was on holiday with my mum when I started it, I remember the moment well. I couldn’t really sleep that night, so I just got my computer out and started typing, started writing. I actually only wrote 6 pages in total, so the book has a long long way to go, however I came across these initial writings last night and so I would like to share them with you.
It’s Nice to Share
I will share the writings over the new few blog posts, I think it’s nice to share and maybe it will inspire you to start writing your own book…..just maybe.
So here goes…..enjoy!!
Chapter Title: Carpe Diem
Seize the Day
“If you get caught between the moon and New York City, that’s what you can, that’s what you can do, is fall in love”,…..5.48am, Monday, 1st August 2011 and I’m listening to my iPod from my hotel room in sunny Santa Ponsa, Majorca. I am here on holiday with my mum, it was a last minute holiday booking, an opportunity that couldn’t be missed, Carpe Diem meaning “seize the day”, when my Uncle Gerry offered us his holiday accommodation – so hence the fact why we are here…who knows what this week will bring, but I am sure lots of good times, fun, soul searching, heart reflection and inner inspiration. This is special mother daughter time and now that I am 38 I realise how important and precious this time is, so I will be the BEST daughter I can be.
There is a Book in Each and Everyone of YOU
I was thinking last week that I would take on the challenge of writing my book whilst I was away, so I am delighted I have started, not exactly sure where this book will take us, but I guess I am taking you on a journey of life reflections, learning and future inspiration. Why now?….Well, I feel strong messages from external and internal sources have taken me to this moment now, so I’ll just keep on writing.
“There is a book in each and everyone of you”, the voice from the stage loudly expressed, and you know what, that man on the stage, he is so right. We all have our own stories of real life and/or fictional stories from our creative imagination, we just need to start them…I’m going to just keep on writing.
It’s only a matter of time for your vision to come alive. First you feel it in your heart, then you see it in your imagination, then you feel it moving in your bones and then it dances throughout your body….and only when it has flowed through all of those stages, only then it begins to take form.
It starts with one word, one step, one piece of the 100,000 piece jigsaw puzzle but it doesn’t matter how long it takes, because you know “your calling” is going to make it. Listen to me my friend, it’s only a matter of time……because it is in silence of faith that dreams can be awakened.
So can I relate to the above? Yes, you’ve got it, of course I can. Almost 6 years ago, I was kind of laughed at because I said at the very start of my business that I was going to have my own books, my very own positive book range……I just knew what they were thinking, their faces said it all, but you know I BELIEVED, I really believed in me, I always do and sometimes I get off track but I always get back there, back to where I need to be.
I sit here today looking at my first Amazon paperback book,”Clarabelle’s Musings”, sitting on my home office desk and I am smiling with pure joy, excitement and adoration of what I see before me……for my heart is sitting on this table, my heart is painted on the pages of this book, making its way to you.
So if you believe like I believed in me, when other people laughed at what I wanted to achieve for myself, may my own story inspire you to keep going my friend…..6 days, 6 months, 6 years, you’re going to make it…..it’s only a matter of time.