Feeling Blessed

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Sharing some happy tears with you today.

In 1996 I replied to a newspaper advert, pen friends for people in the British Army – I thought it would be a nice thing to do.

On the 13th January 1997 I received my first letter from Steve, he was 23 years and had been serving in the British army since he was 18 years old, the airmail letter came from Bosnia. We never actually met, we just wrote to each other for a period of 2 years.

I was clearing out old papers from my mum’s house the other day and came across Steve’s letters to me – 31 of them.  Today I am reading all these letters again, I am happy, I am sad (but in a good way) and I have gained such heart warming inspiration from them, all over again….I wonder where Steve is now? I wish him very well

These are the little unexpected moments of life that put some true meaning and purpose into it all.  Feeling blessed.

Write a letter to someone today, go on, I know it would be a very lovely thing to do and you and the other person will get so much from it.

Love Clarabelle

Please note, that sadly after writing this blog post, I was so sad to find out that Steve passed away in September 2012 at the very young age of 39 years, I am so shocked. I will try my best to get in touch with his mum and forward his beautiful letters to her. He was so happy and full of life, such a loss to this world that he is no longer here. I think this is just a little reminder to us all that we must make the most of our lives and focus on the important things to us going forward. Clarabelle

Happy Child

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Clarabelle Age 7, Carfin Village Gala Week

I was such a happy child, I honestly had a fabulous childhood it was so much fun, adventurous, exciting and full of imagination.  I had lots of friends and most of the time we made up our own entertainment.  We used our imagination to make up dances and songs, we played at football rounders, kick-the-can, hide and seek, beds (hopscotch), races, treasure hunt, lee voy, relay races, obstacles courses, we would climb up trees and make up hidden camps in the park.  I am smiling now because my childhood was so so so so happy and I am very proud to say that I am still very close with some of those very special childhood friends almost 35 years later.

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Clarabelle Age 6 and Brother Age 9

As a child I always remember being full of dreams and excited ambition, although it was probably portrayed as being too far fetched and a little ‘show off’ at times.  I never interpreted it as that myself, I was just so happy and wanted to display my happiness to others, I suppose I wanted them to share my happiness too.

Clarabelle Age 5
Clarabelle Dancing Age 5

My mum said to me that her memory of me as a child was that I was always singing, she said I would sing from the moment I woke up until I went to bed.  The funny thing is I forgot I did that until my mum reminded me of it a couple of years ago.   I forgot that I used to do that as a child and I guess I forgot what it was to be that child again singing, dancing and living in a very free-spirited way.  However I am finding that the more I understand who I am as a person the more I am becoming that happy spirited child again, the person that I always was but somehow got lost along the way.

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Clarabelle (Age 10) & Sister Leanne (Age 5)

At this moment in time, on my journey of life, I am really happy, I feel free-spirited, creative and mesmerised by the beauty in this world. It’s like I am seeing the world again through my childlike eyes, like when I was 7 years old again.

Clarabelle Age 11
Clarabelle Age 11 (holding Courage Banner in pink)

As a child I loved things like catching my reflection in puddles on a rainy day, gazing up at the stars at night, staring at a summer nights sky and being wondered by all the magical colours and different shapes of clouds.  I loved making daisy chains and I would look endlessly at each petal on the daisy, really feeling and smelling its fresh air scent.  I loved the great outdoors and just being free, I guess just being me, living in each very moment and seeing each and everything around me as magical.

Now I know why I was a happy child.  🙂 🙂 🙂

May your day today be filled with magical childlike moments that allow you to see the beauty in everything around you.  Lots and lots of love to you today, Clarabelle

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