Love is a force…..

“Love is a force more formidable than any other.  It is invisible – it cannot be seen or measured, yet it is powerful enough to transform you in a moment, and offer you more joy than any material possession could.” Barbara de Angelis

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Where are you inspiration?
I searched and searched you know, looking for that one piece of inspiration, that one trigger, that sentiment of hope that would help me to turn my life around.  I searched long and hard, night and day……..I struggled to find it.  Where are you inspiration, when I need you the most, where are you to help me get back up again?  And the search continued…….


So, where do you go from here?

Now, I know the answer, but at that difficult time, there was no way I was going to find it, because there was too much noise, too much desperation, too much struggle, not enough head space, not enough belief, not enough faith, focus on pain and negativity….how was I going to find inspiration amongst all that? Just like finding a needle in a haystack, I was unaware at the time, but I had given myself such a mammoth task.  So where do you go from here?  When you feel you’ve hit rock bottom and the punches keep coming, the waves get bigger and bigger and you forget how to swim….what happens next?

Yes, it does have a happy ending.

I’ll tell you what happens next, you sleep, long deep sleeps, it helps you to forget, it allows you to avoid your own perception of reality when you sleep, and when you wake up, you want to sleep again.  To be alone is your saving grace, or at least that’s what you think….but being alone too long can be dangerous, because you get swamped in the quicksand of fear.  I have stopped writing right now, because it is making me cry, taking me back to those dreadful feelings…but only for a short, sharp moment, because I am better now and I am telling the survival story – yes, it does have a happy endingYes, yes, YES.

Miss Positivity
Would you believe me if I said, going into this downward spiral, that my mind was strong and my attitude was positive….I honestly believe it was, but even for Miss Positivity the cracks did show.  Up, down, up, down, down, down, up, up, down, up…..I was a seesaw of emotions in action…sometimes good, often not so good.   For every positive thought I tried to focus on, in flowed a river of negative thoughts……I knew it wasn’t good, I knew I had to do something, anything as I cried out for help at night…. my pillow drenched with tears.


Explorer of the courageous soul

Let me fast forward for a moment, today I am in such a good place, the best I have ever felt for such a long time, even when I thought I was at my happiest, possibly in 2007, I am aware now that it was all external happiness, this time it’s different, this time it is internal,  my happiness is coming from within………….and the irony is, that I would never have discovered that place, if I had given up at the toughest of times.  You see I am a fighter, ‘never die’ kind of person, if there was a glimmer of hope, I was surely going to find it.  This to me was the ‘battle of the brave’, ‘the explorer of the courageous soul’, ‘the underdog who discovered paradise’, ‘the barefooted soldier coming out from the trenches’, ‘the white flag surrendering my heart to the universe’, ‘the first baby step of a journey that never ends’…..there is no destination… just creative imagination and infinite expression of the true self.  And so the story continues…..

This is only temporary

To combat the bruises of stress, there were many things that helped me on my way, daily gratitude, forcing myself to spend time with family and friends, daily exercise, daily meditation, daily prayer for self and for others, good nutrition, acceptance of the situation, learning to face up to my fears, letting go of the emotions that were not serving me well, continuously asking myself questions until the right ones connected with me, painting a picture of my future dreams in alignment with my core values, nurturing my inner belief and self confidence, being honest with myself, allowing myself to be vulnerable,  giving myself permission to forgive, believing that I could change the current situation, telling myself “this is only temporary”, building up trust in myself and regaining the faith that I knew was always there, identifying my strengths, surrounding myself with anything and everything inspirational, telling myself “keep going, keep going”…….

Forever Inspiring

But most of all, MOST of all, the turning point….the tipping point….the true trigger point…. was believing that I am truly loved, knowing that I was on the path to love, knowing that I was and am love and ultimately the giver of love.  Love redeems all, there is nothing more powerful than love, nothing else will reach that sweet spot like genuine love for self and others.  Love was the answer, love is the answer, love was and is the ultimate trigger of transformation and transcendence into who I am today, me with no role, no identity, no ego, just me…that is the place, that is forever inspiring, that is paradise and me.

6 thoughts on “Love is a force…..

  1. Made a decision recently that I should repeat the past four years, on my blog that is.
    2014 Happiness Is, 2015 Love Is, 2016 Life Is, 2017 Kindness Is…
    I have tons of inspiration left over from those previous years years (2010 – 2013), plus,
    what you wrote today about love is awesome. Borrowed a few quotes, and God willing
    in 2015 I will be sending you a note telling you “Thank You” for that days “Love Is” blog inspiration.

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    1. Hi Michael, that really is a wonderful idea, I would love to read you posts on happiness, love, life and back round to kindness – I really look forward to reading them and being inspired. Thank you Michael, thank you for all that you are 🙂 Clarabelle

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  2. Beautifully written Clarabelle. Sometimes it is difficult to stay positive, it can take a lot of training, mentally. I believe in the powers of the universe and what we focus on, we bring. We have to always look for the good things and focus on them to bring us forward from the dark moments. Beautiful!

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    1. Thank you Debby for your kind words, yes so very true indeed. The challenges of life makes us stronger but sometimes we don’t see that at the time and the greatest learning can come from our reflections on it. Thank you for the visit today. Love Clarabelle

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