Don’t be afraid to start something again, even after a long or short break from it. Do what your body, mind and soul is yearning for.
I started running outdoors again after a one year break. This may not seem like anything special, but to a four times marathoner – it is a big deal!
I run the New York, USA marathon in 2007;
The London, England marathon in 2010;
The Loch Ness, Inverness, Scotland marathon in 2013;
The Edinburgh, Scotland marathon in 2015.
I don’t envisage doing any more marathons but never say never!
It’s so much harder on the ego, when you’ve done very well in something, stopped the whole momentum and then had the courage to start from the very beginning again. In your mind you’ve been at the top of your game, you know what that feels like and the confidence it gives you. Well, starting at the bottom again, is the complete opposite of that – it’s a very tough pill to take.
Many times in life I’ve been humbled with these situations. In my earlier career, I was at the top of my game – I was a confident leader, with unshakeable work commitment and super ambitious drive. I am still that person within, but because of trying out various new career paths, I had to start at the very bottom again and again. This was at times, extremely soul destroying and really painful on my ego…..ouch! Regardless, I always took full responsibility for my choices and decisions and I honestly have no regrets.
My ego has been repeatedly battered and bruised over the last 16 years – but I’m still standing strong with solid self-belief.
For some reason, I like to constantly challenge this ego – sometimes I love it and other times I fight it. It’s quite bizzare – like I see my ego as another person. Ultimately though, I would say that when me and my ego “work together” that’s where the magic happens.
Staying friends with my ego is the best way forward. We can help each other achieve the impossible through that “never give up” attitude it instils in me.
My ego helps me to be brave and carry on. It moves me forward in life and wants me to succeed. It listens to my worries but tells me to focus on solutions. It pushes me to grow, thrive and help others.
Today, I shake hands with my ego and I thank it for making me resilient, resourceful and adventurous. It took me on the wonderful “scenic route” of life and I learned so much about myself.
My ego got me “out of the box” and into the muddy trenches of life. When I look back, oh what a super adventure I had. I guess my ego freed me from societal pressures of assumed “normality”. I love you my ego, you are part of me – the great part that wants me to do well in life.
Allow your beautiful ego to nudge you forward in life. Have a happy dance with it and let it help you explore this wondrous world.
Me and my ego are ONE.
Much love to you,
Clarabelle
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